I was looking for some kind of art blog sight to use that wasnt all mainstream so a bit more freedom of expression instead of having to listen to people actually know critzing me and telling me how ridiculous my thoughts are, hopefully this will work out but i dunno

i guess ill upload something later but for now im just trying to get the feel of this website and ramble a bit, although this website seems rather under used...:DDD Well i dont know what to say but i feel like writing, so yeah and as far as art goes im still crazy amateur but i dont care at this moment.

ive been so strange lately, not that i was ever normal, but im just done worrying about things, but it feels like im drowning in apathy and i hate saying how apathetic i am cause it sounds like so such a poser emo kid thing. Just with all the drama that im always surrounded in and i dont see any point in wasting my time caring, although i always feel like im wasting my time but thats not the point. i dont know, some people express their frustration/depression/ectera with talking crap about people and i just write about irrelevant things and paint/draw. But i generally feel ashamed of things i make since im well aware they arent good enough but i have to do something to maintain sanity in way other than alcohol

My mom and her boyfriend are fighting once again so im at my brothers grandpa like 30minutes from 'my' house and my mom was yelling at me to hurry up so i didnt get like any of my stuff so ima go shopping or something so i actually have something to wear, and i also forgot my sketch pad so im going to just doodle on computer paper. well i dunno im sure this website is more art gallery-ish then blog-age but i dunno, ill upload some stuff from my deviantart later so ill feel like less of a failure, lol

well whatever talk if you want